"..
words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup
they slither while they pass they slip away across the universe
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perfect - is the best way to describe phrases above. they were arranged beautifully, stealing my heart each time i hum the song. wish i can express feelings in such way.
i believe human's lifeline is always dramatic. too little to find similarities with storyline in films. hero doesn't always win. villain isn't going to fall in a death hole at the end of the day. no background song to describe current situation. this ain't exciting anymore eh? so what actually keeps people going? in my diary, i live as i have hope. hope for god's greatness to reward me with heaven, hope to be a successful lover for my loved ones, hope to become a great achiever in career, hope this, hope that, never-ending hope.. a movie that has changed my life of retaining hope is the one on top of my list of all time; the shawshank redemption. if any of you guys had no idea of what it is, i advice you to go and see it. produced in early 90s, i still feel that it easily hands off any high-tech and well-known casts movie. not to say it's close to real life, but it has included lessons that i took seriously up until today. i give it an 8 out of 5! dear friends, never give up hope in life. we can be crawling for our lives throughout years and suddenly during one fine day, gain back dignity and rise above all. doesn't matter if we are expelled from college, being drug addicts for too long, lost virginity before getting married, jailed for crimes or for what so ever reason, there's always hope for a better tomorrow. this isn't any fairy tale, it happens to people everyday everywhere. just don't give up. work towards any light that you can see though it looks so dim. there's always hope.
frankly, at times i've given up hope - at those moments when i tried so hard to win, and ended up losing battles. luckily there are few who will always remind me to gain back hope and live. trust me as i am serious. to point out one, now i am facing that stage of losing. it makes me damn pissed off when i know that i’m on the right side but have to hide creating camouflage in the jungle. how can’t i scream out loud for justice? but even crying my heart out will not help. i wish that i can tell this story of idiots educated people. but for the sake of all, i'll stop here.
movie review eh, syg? yes i've been addicted in going to cinemas. from lots of them let me try to rate one. hmm.. which one? as i don't want to be rated as pro only to yasmin ahmad’s, let's not talk about mukhsin. not long ago me and syg went to see a low-profile movie called chermin. the storyline is typical, but wait.. chermin's line of casts is surprisingly not bad, not bad at all. hard to say but got to be fair on this, natasha hudson can act! for the love of god, zul please shut up and stop smiling as i know you are her top fan; "wei.... natasha hudson wei. weiiii...." okay you win bro. i'm impressed with her debut in country's filming industry. btw, she's not that so very beautiful if you say that she has a complete package ^_^ others, deanna yusoff and khatijah tan as usual looked matured while the rest that i noticed that were also impressive are soffi jikan and farah ahmad. go go malaysia! chermin is about a wife that suffered for his husband ignorance towards her as they are married cousins. she was never touched, trying hard to earn attention but failed and at the end is about to be divorced as her husband married a 2nd wife of his choice. from there tragedy happened and until today generations from that man's 2nd wife is haunted by ghost of her. ignore the idea, consider its casts, sets and plots, chermin is not a total waste of money. for me, chermin is a 3 out of 5.
also appended in this post, i would like to congratulate my other half yusnida mohd razalan for getting in an international firm. i'm so proud of you syg. it seems that i'm determine to increase my current investment in you as dividend that i'll enjoy looked to be irresistible ^_^ hmm.. people said that swiss starbucks tastes unique eh? won't know until you bring me there and try, right? ^_^ okay, now for real. i feel like sharing the joy that is rewarded to you syg. syukur alhamdulillah. you deserve it, after all the hard work you've done. let us pray for more prosperous things to come in our life. and also for our love. love you so much.
stop giving me that face please. a carnivore has feelings, too ^_^
what else? football!!! of course. bianconeri is coming back! near to the end of serie b hopefully juventus can clinch up the title. hopefully by next season i can watch back the flat tone serie a highlights show. the most respectful member of the squad for me is gianluigi buffon. i salute you, gigi! even if after this you move to other clubs, spending this season with my soul club and being disrespected all year long entitled you to be club's icon. there are others too, but mostly other are players getting old, loosing form or still not considered as international as him. it's the world cup winner’s keeper i'm talking about here. generally, i'm waiting for juve's comeback to serie a. woohoo! in premier league, red devils are looking good as ever going for treble. last weekend selangor beat perlis 1-0 - yessss! stuttgart is performing above what's expected - runners-up in bundesliga is fantastic enough for me. celta and vitesse are struggling - normal in football. strasbourg? sorry :”> limited resources to french ligue 2. overall, i'm tremendously happy for this current football season. keep it up guys. p/s: david beckham please get the hell out of european football asap.. thanks.
today, 30th of april 2007 it's the birthday of my mother, fatimah selamat. happy birthday, ibu! may allah bless you, living happily ever after. thank you for being a great mother for my 24 years life. i promise that as long as i live, you will always be treated nicely and given best place to live in that i afford. sayang ibu..
last but not list, current song in my head :) it's a tough choice to point out from my current song list. i would say that this time i'm back with 80's / 90's malay slow rock tune. oh yeah i admit that i listen to malay songs. some are boring but some are nice too. just like english songs. this hit was recorded by ella for soundtrack of a movie which i can't remember its name, starring my fav actor faizal hussein. tiada tangis lagi by ella..
engkau jadi kenangan
dalam hati
terlalu lama engkau pergi
langit masih begitu
anggun dan biru
memayungi taman rindu
kiambang menjadi lambang
kau bagai bayang-bayang
kini ku terbuang
danau tenang selalu
seolah tidak tahu
gelora di hatiku
selama hayat ini
ku simpan rahsia hati
ku renung masa nan lalu
terasa pilu
ke mana harusku mengadu
[chorus]
di sini ku berdiri
tiada tangis lagi
oh..ohhhh..ohhhhhhhh…
tiada tangis lagi
* have a good day. i’m signing off. wassalam.